I am really bad at proportions

Here is a wonderful chocolate cake concoction that I mentioned yesterday:

There are two layers of browns because I unfortunately, mistakenly chopped the veruna chocolate pieces too coarsely hence their sinking act. Nevertheless, it was crazily moist and soft. 

I would have never discovered this chocolate goodness if not for my mother. She came up to me last night and said to help her make this. My inertia needs a little help here.

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One who fears vulnerability is by nature, vulnerable. Isn’t that why we are too afraid to fall? 

Am watching Matilda

Just baked a wonderful chocolate kahlua cake

I’m not able to comprehend how I missed out on watching Matilda. Any books of Roald Dahl is a friend of mine. Matilda was the first book I read when I was 6, and I moved on to the great classics of Dahl’s later on in the early years of school. I adored his books, and I love every production of his novels. It makes me fall back into my child-like fantasies, and it gives me an avenue to innocence and disenthrallment again. Those movies, alongside with The Parent Trap (I dare say I watched this movie over 30times at least)..they do a fantastic job in keeping me happy.

Sent my clothes for alteration today..spent a whopping $27 (it is whopping because I am broke)

Kindly did a survey through the telephone for a lady, in which I asked if it was difficult to get respondents at the end. She gave a very encouraging reply, so I’m not as fearful of rejections this coming weekend. We can do this. We can kill.

Later got a call from my mom, followed by a call from my self-source company. Am having mixed feelings about this but in God I trust. Yes I will.

F: Dinner with Alawiyyah and Danielle at Hatched, HV

I ordered a Burly Benedict, Danielle; a Smoked Royale and Alawiyyah got a beef-based pie with yummy scrambled eggs (which name escapes me)

It’s been really long since I’ve seen Alawiyyah, must less Danielle. It’s been 4 years since we met up together, and it was a really encouraging meet-up. Wi (Siti’s self-declared short-form for herself) mentioned about how in my previous blog that I questioned the possibility of us still keeping in touch when we graduate, and on Friday, it happened. And it was very encouraging to see that. I miss these girls…hearing Danielle talk about going to America in August and Alawiyyah speaking about her dreams, we’ve grown. Truly grown. Even Danielle claims she hasn’t, I think we all have and it’s really uplifting to see that :’)

I wonder what we will be like in 10 years..I concluded that Alawiyyah will sign on for army and Danielle will marry a caucasian. We’ll see *v*

Anyway, it was quite amusing because we saw so many familiar places at HV, especially Hatched. 

And Siti/Wi/Alawiyyah, I know you say you read this sometimes, so if you do..just wna thank you for initiating the meet-up :>

So this is what my e-learning week has been like: 

M: ^ tea with bay @ Paul’s Bakery

I settled for some lait du chocolat and she, cappucino with vanilla

We shared: Moelleux Chocolate cake and some fruit tarlette. The food wasn’t that fantastic, but the experience was good. The hot chocolate milk had a very tangy taste, much too heavy for my liking

T: dimsum @ Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant (one of the hidden chinese restaurants in Turf City with dim and orthodox furnishings, uncanny resemblance to the restaurants in m’sia…felt like i was there)

yay for friends who drive

^ the best xlb i’ve ever eaten. in my life. nuff said.

The juice that oozes out of its skin…mmhm heavenly. If i’m not wrong, it’s some saucesome awesome chicken (herbal) stock, unlike your normal soupy stock. I don’t know if I’m living in a well, but throughout my past 19 years, I have never encountered xlb as perfect as this

T: dinner with ty and kim at Delicious at Scotts Square for ty’s advanced birthday

I first dined in Delicious at KL a few years back, and very intrigued I was @ the interiors of this eatery. Featuring bird cages and a really soothing shade of blue akin to the hue of the seas, and the clever usage of a feature plant wall, wooden furnishings and white 

Friends since year 1, don’t we feel old. Happy 19th, ty! 

1 more day to e-learning. Of course these are just the positives..my work is killing me. Nevertheless, it was worth taking time to actually go out of the house and meet up with my friends:’) 

I have friends….and no money

S, 19th May: went to tzechar @ charm’s dad’s stall in belated celebration for my 19th. it was our virgin experience since we always eat out at mini western restaurants/cafes. headed down to sogurt later in charm’s car, with 6 of us behind the back seat. i owe all to lou and wl (i sat on lou’s lap and i practically squashed wl all the way)

but anyway, thanks for taking time off despite your busy schedules. love y’all

later spoke on the phone till 230am and fell asleep on my new bed

This morning, I woke up to do a portion of my exploratory paper and was interrupted by my mom, asking me to make some baked apple cinammon french toast. Hence, the two pictures below:

It is unfortunate that we insisted on leaving out the whipped cream, these babies were supposed to look much much more moist and toasted. Nevertheless, it tasted great

It is always de rigueur to capture all the bakeries that we create..the daylight reflecting against the metal tabletop at the back of the kitchen always leaves a subtle touch of magic

makes me feel happy 

W: today i wore this ^ 

and i went home during my two hour break because kim and all weren’t in school. in those two hours, i called j and ate leftover homemade yam cake and siew mai goodness and drank my last vitagen. i also attempted to start on my exploratory paper, but knowing me…

when i came home for the second time today, i took out the butter, went on the phone for a second time, and fell asleep.

later i baked some saucesome chapalang banana chocolate chip cookies with a handful of dried cranberries whereby i reduced the butter and sugars. i absolutely love health(ier) bakeries with only a tinge of sweetness. i miss baking so so much. i only started mixing because i was craving for some cookies

T: complacency is a culprit, no doubt. there is only about 7 months left in the year and i think, what made me so sure? Truth is, I am never certain of myself, much less God

I cringe at the person I’ve become, but there’s still a pint of hope in me that all this is merely but a blessing in disguise. I just hope I won’t become hopeless and love sincerely so that the populace in my heart will never be hurt. Again.

Of course, I can’t be sure of that either. For I am never certain of myself. But I will try. I promise I will.

today i watched a video about brands and how they define us and how consumerism has become a religion itself, as defined by the term “spirituality of commerce” and i think, it’s true

the paradox of this world 

so what is a religion vs what is a relationship

i cannot live two lives at once..this is true, too. i live every day wondering what kind of disease will fall onto me or what kind of danger will come to me. i cannot trust with my heart anymore, and it is sad. but if this is the life i hath chosen

with whom, may i ask, am i fighting a losing battle with 

The world spins madly on.

S: 06/05/12 and 22/04/12

Celebrated my pre-19th with the girls; Sherlyn baked a lovely red velvet shortcake, which my mother loved

The night ended with much abruptness (on my part that is) but I went to bed happy

“Love is a decision”, something that I took away from the half-hearted listening I did about marriages and God’s will

M: 07/05/12

Passed my FTT. Finally the dreaded theories are over and done with 

T: 08/05/12

I turn 19. 

Truth is, it was just like any other day…except that I got excused for everything because it was my birthday and someone lovely came over in the morning. Turning 19 doesn’t feel as special as 18th. 

The only takeaway that I got was that…I’m no longer a teen and I have to start being responsible for my own life. 

T: 10/05/12

My interview went great. I cannot describe the inexorable positivity within me…it seems that for once, I could do something. For once, I was able to detach myself and be someone else…and portray myself in a non-vulnerable way and I am glad

Class with dion

Being best friends with john for my wisp class, where he bought me a chocolate chip cookie and lemon barley (which I hate but attempted to love while i quietly sip my drink from the thin straw). 

Doing minor cleaning for my absolutely cluttered room and spending the night on my market research report whilst repeatedly listening to three different versions of “secrets” and subconsciously whiffing in the sweet scent of a red rose diagonal to where I am seated

On a side note, my feet has accumulated ugly blisters. This is not good